letters are the same, but words are alien

Have you ever noticed how important words are to our lives? Such variety of feelings they bear... I can almost say I know someone better upon the words he/she uses.

My dear friend, I do my best trying to learn as many words as I can in your language. I only hope that so, I can get to you and make you understand me.

One uses words to sing, other to play a role, but most people use words to show their feelings, opinion, regrets... Our entire life depends on words. How many of us are aware of it? Quite real weapons sometime, they can decide human lives and influence others' fate.

What if they are misused? One will never be accused of using, deliberately or not, the wrong word in the right place or the right word in the wrong place. Also, one might posses the rare ability to detect reality hidden behind words. But the worst case is of self-censoring forced by circumstances. Could our friendship survive this censoring? Would those words represent us? Not anymore!

The most deceiving and painful is when words are used to make promises.. How much are we able to control when the time to keep our promises will arrive? If we fail meeting our promise, we hear in return: "But you gave my you word!"

Words have also their limit. They value nothing in certain moments of our lives. Long time ago, I was speechless when I was supposed to comfort a friend after a hard loss. Her pain was so deep, and the loss so hard! I realized then that no words - no matter how carefully chosen - would give her the least comfort. So, I just held her in my arms, silently.

I felt in love with a wonderful man once. He was so much like me that when the moment came to talk to him about my feelings, silence suddenly possessed me. I couldn't find the words to let him know how much I loved him. I was afraid he will misunderstand me. I didn't take this risk, and now everything's just a story. He didn't even know how much I loved him. Words seem helpless in many moments during our existence. So, words can hurt, express happiness, and bring bad or good news, but they lose power when circumstances overwhelm us. They are transformed then in a hidden, silent pain.

I could only use words to reach you, my friend. Even self-censored words sound better than no words. I miss your words... They used to give me so much hope and strength to resist this crazy world we live in.

Just as well, words helped me many times in my life. "Yes" and "No" are very powerful, but I learned that the most important of them are "I love you".